Anxiety (feat. Xyra)
- Jun 3
- 2 min read
Updated: 4 days ago
They tell me
“Take a deep breath, honey
Everything will fade”
But the air inside my lungs
Don’t know how to stay.
Fear sleeps heavy
Like a body on my chest
And peace walks through my doorway
Like a stranger, never rests.
Everybody loves my smile
Nobody hears the cracks
This house still stands in pictures
But the foundation’s turning black.
There’s something in my soul
I don’t know how to name
It ain’t madness
It ain’t sadness
Still it burns me all the same.
Like a room without a doorway
Like a bell nobody hears
I keep breathing through the silence
With my lungs full of fear.
People call you sensitive
Like it’s some kind of disease
But they never watched the ceiling
Begging panic just to leave.
Anxiety got no shadow
Still it follows where I go
Pulls a chair beside the mirror
Whispers things I shouldn’t know.
And some nights
I miss the woman
I used to be before
Now she feels like someone
Who don’t live here anymore.
There’s something in my soul
I don’t know how to name
It ain’t madness
It ain’t sadness
Still it calls me by my pain.
Like a room without a window
Where the light forgot to go
I scream beneath the surface
And nobody ever knows.
If you ever stayed awake
With your heartbeat in your throat
Counting every breath at midnight
Just to keep yourself afloat
Maybe we were never broken
Maybe we just learned to hide
Carrying a quiet fire
We buried deep inside.
There’s something inside us
They may never understand
A silent kind of fighting
Just to rise up once again.
And though nobody sees
How hard it is to breathe
We’re still here
Still learning
How not to disappear.
And maybe someday
When somebody asks
“How you been?”
We won’t lie this time.
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